To My Husband on my Marriage Anniversary

I don't remember when I first noticed you,I don't recall the first glance either,
I am not reminded who said it first ,nor our first date together,
The first touch is hardly felt now and the kiss long forgotten ,
For these were minimal things in life,for our love, that always kept us firm.


Together we walked in from childhood to the doors of adolescence ,
The sunshine that we rejoiced together ,the darkness that we past by,
The romance that still grows stronger, the fights that keep us close,
The friendship that always survived ,even when things didn't go so well.


So,this is just another passing year and a toast to our lives together,
To all our further years to come,and our share of fun and laughter,
The clouds that we'll blow away and the differences we'll laugh on;
The love that grows warmer and the friendship that will always make us proud!!

मेरा आकाश !!

शुन्य हर तरफ

ना कोई उमंग, ना कोई सपना,

कुछ अन्दर है जो दम तोड़ता जा रहा है,

मरने से रोकना है उसे,

पर जैसे उसकी धीमी होती सासें , महसूस करती हूँ I

यह कैसी घुटन है ?कैसी तलाश ?

इतना गैराना अपने ही अस्तित्व से ?

क्यूँ फडफडाते हैं मनं के पंख,

क्यूँ सब कुछ निकलता जा रहा है ,और मैं रोक नहीं पा रही उसे?

तम्मन्ना आकाश छूने की ,

हिम्मत चट्टान हिलाने की ,

पर जैसे ज्वालामुखी का यह मलवा अन्दर ही ठंडा पड़ता जा रहा है II

किन बंधनों से बंधी हूँ ,जिन्हें तोड़ने मैं असक्षम मैं?

पर यह बंधन ही तो मानव होने का गौरव दिलाते हैं ,

कभी मेरी कमजोरी तो कभी मेरी शक्ति बताते हैं II

डरती हूँ, आकाश की खोज मैं निकली मैं ,

कहीं धरती से वास्ता खो बेठी ,

तो धरातल पर आ गिरूंगी II

समय बीतता जा रहा है, झटपताहट बढती जा रही है ,

और जैसे बुझते दिए की लौ तेज़ हो जाती है,

मनं की तीव्रता भी बढती है II

शक्ति है मझमें,

अभिलाषा भी,

उसे दीप्त करने वाला पुरुषार्थ भी I

आकाश मुझसे मिलने धरती तक आएगा I

मैं यहीं धरातल पर रह कर चट्टान हिलाउंगी ,

अपना आकाश स्वयं बनाउंगी !!.

Happy Fathers Day ...Papa!!

Like many of us Indians I had always considered Fathers Day, Mothers Day, Valentines Day etc nuisances and just western influences on the Indian culture . For us ,I argued we don't need a special day or time to tell our loved ones what they mean to us.

2.5 years and my opinion has changed.

I lost my father in a road accident on 24th Nov 2007, ten days before my wedding day. This one incident has effected me most in my life and if I could handle that, I am sure I can handle anything in life now. What I regret most today is that I never told my father how much I loved him and what he meant to me. He might have known it or maybe he would have died wondering,I don't know but I regret missing all those Fathers Days...I wish I would have done or made one single day special for him...just one day in an year. Its not that I haven't done small things for him. I have tried my best. I remember the pride I felt in my fathers eyes when I first sent money home from my salary.It was mere Rs.3000 but he took it with pride. The money was saved ,I realised after his death, in our joint account. Whatever I sent was never spent! I took them for a nice vacation...his last with me. I loved to take him shopping.He wasn't the kinds who would spend on him at all and I remember one of his colleagues telling me how he boasted of the new jacket , wallet and watch I bought him in his entire office. I also bought him clothes and new shoes to wear on my wedding. They were left untouched as he passed away. So in actual I could do practically nothing for him and this dissatisfaction will live with me forever.

Its almost 2.5yrs and the pain is as fresh as ever.They say time heals every pain.But they did not mention the amount of time. I am still waiting for my time to come.Today my happiest morning is when I get up with a dream of my father.Its most refreshing!!

Now I want to celebrate every such Day. Tell all the people I care of..what they mean to me on these days whether its mothers day ,fathers day or valentines day ...say things that we don't say otherwise,send gifts and flowers , take them out for movies and dinners or do anything that pronounce celebration! Its important ,and I hope every one reading this will learn from my experience, and not regret it later ,when the people we love, are no longer around us.

Life doesn't always give you chance to make amends!!

What marriage taught me !

If you ignore my physical looks which are totally feminine , I had always been a tomboy at heart. So when it came to getting married I was in total dilemma. I had no idea what marriage was about .All I knew was it was another social obligation and was necessary to give some peace of mind to my retired father whose only left responsibility was to marry me off.


So, when it came for choosing a groom I took the safest bet. I decided I'll marry my best friend for 12 years and that turned out to be the wisest decision of my life so far.


I will be married for 3 years this December and this institution has already taught me a lot.

1. Where my happiness lies!

It taught me no matter how ambitious I may get, or what money I earn or how powerful I become ....The only things that actually make me (or can I say woman here) happy are the small things I can do for my husband, whether its cooking for him, washing his clothes, or simply waiting for him to get back home from the ship..thats what truly keeps me happy and I can trade this for the highest post in the world. Period!

2. Egos are to be dumped.
Being a Leo gal I was born with it.I learnt that my Ego was a waste. For marriage sometimes I even trade my self respect.I dumped this three word monster from my life.

3. Fights don't last forever.
Fight , sleep and forget. No use lingering on who said what and why. Thankfully my husband practices the same concept.

4.Respect is important.
Respect for each other , for both the side families and for your own selves. Fight as much as you can but do not disrespect . That creates a long time wound
and effects love most!! So be careful here.

5.Keep nuisance creating people at bay.
There are some people around you(thanks to Indian social system) who have nothing else to do but to create havocs in other peoples life. Be careful to whom you listen to and do not let anyone ( not even parents), I literally mean anyone interfere in your marital life. !!

6.Money is important.Save!!
When poverty knocks on the door love flies out of the window. Yes, I truly believe that. Not that I ever had to experience that ..ThankGod!! But monetary stability does give your relationship a stability.How can you experience love when all you are doing all day is worry about basic luxuries in life.!

7.Friendship and Team Work!!
Last but definitely not the least there is nothing nobler or more admirable than when two people who see eye to eye keep house as man and wife, confounding their enemies and delighting their friends.

The goal in marriage is not to be alike, but to be together.




2.5 years of marital bliss and I feel transformed and still a long way to go!

Bosses!!!

I have been working for quite some years now and if there is one category of people I have spent most of my life with in these last few years,they are my bosses. Good or bad they have been an indispensable part of my life and each of them have left a mark on me that will remain with me forever.I will not talk about the good ones , frankly there is not much to talk about them and though it was a pleasant experience being with them ,they did not contribute much to my career growth. Goodness speaks in whispers and EVIL SHOUTS...and I ,like many of us ,am hard of hearing!!!


The others(I avoid saying the bad ones) were callous, cold-blooded individuals. Idiots who think nine Women can deliver a baby in one month!! These were the creepy creatures I remember every day and thank them from bottom of my heart.They helped me learn the corporate game ,enhanced my patience,gave constant ideas on strategy making to attain my personal objectives and provided me with the fire to target and shoot!!They helped me imagine the unattainable and think beyond my known capabilities.When I look back and see ,many of the milestones I achieved in my career were not because I was too good at it but because I wanted to shed some of the agitation and slap back.It stirred me to get some exceptionally good results and get noticed not only by my team but also by top management.Though accomplishing the impossible only meant that it will be add it to your regular duties!!


I am now at a point in my career where I am standing on the other side of the table. I see in myself, the reflections and leftovers of all these individuals. Being a boss is lonely, and being a lady boss is lonelier. Today I sympathize with this class of human creature of which I am becoming a slow but sure part!!!
And I end this with a hope that everyone I ever acted Bossy with ,will in a similar pattern ,in a few years to come will understand the value of a nasty boss or ME in the growth of their individual career path!!!

Too much of head spoils the heart!!

I always had arugument on one subject with my husband,on whether we should give money to beggars or not. Occasionally, on a red light stop there come some children and poor men and women knocking your window for alms. I find myself unable to ignore someone with his hands opened before me. I just can't ignore it and end up giving them some money. My husband never likes it and says I am promoting beggars and all the evils associated with it. We usually end up arguing on this.

I know there will be many reading this who would agree with my husband.And I don't say he is wrong either. But I have another viewpoint on it. Firstly, if someone opens his hands before me I take it as my duty to give him something if I can afford to,and for God's grace I can certainly afford. Now his begging and his intentions and his deeds are his and with what intention he is begging is his own doing.He will be judged accordingly. As for me, my Karma says that someone with open hands should not go empty handed and that is my deed. His Karma is his and mine is mine.

Secondly, we cannot deny the pitiful conditions in which half the population in India lives. If they are begging it is not that they have wealth hidden and they are cheating us. When we buy Packed Chips (Uncle Chips or any other) that doesn't cost more than Rs.2 including packaging and retailing and pay Rs 15~20 for them ,then we do not think that the company is cheating us, or when we buy Rs 15 mineral water bottle for water, something that is our right, we don't do any analysis.But for giving Rs 2 or Rs 5 to a beggar we want to discuss entire financial statements of what that poor man is earning by begging. I don't think thats fair.

By this I am certainly not in favor of begging. NO. I think it to be most derogatory but what I want to say is.... not to use so much of head where a little heart is required and not to put a lot of heart where a little brain is required(think of it when you buy a pack of chips or coke next time. )Maybe your Rs.15 can serve 5 poor people with a cup of tea in a cold evening

To My Blog

Blogging!! Well after two years of should I ,shouldn't I, I am writing a blog finally!! Why Blogging? Well I really have no answer to it now. Maybe I may answer that after few months of blogging. I am here with a mindset that a blog is a friend. A friend we all lack in our lives today. Amongst the busy schedule of our corporate lives and other complexities of life I miss the simplicity and comfort of a sitting with a cup of coffee with a friend and thinking aloud. My friends are busy just like me and maybe through this we can reconnect again. When most of my life is spent in office cabin making sales and profit analysis I have a strong urge to break through and talk. Talk of the different moods I have every day, talk of my passions and interests, talk of my emotions and talk of my career goals. What an era! Even friends are electronic today ..I hope we do become good friends My Blog!!